In 2023, I’m planning to do things differently. Well, for now, I’m planning that at least. We’ll see where the year takes me…
Normally with a new year, I come up with all these wild ambitions and goals. I set all these expectations for how the year should go and I put an enormous amount of pressure on the “new beginnings” and the “fresh slate” of it all.
This year, I didn’t do that. This year, I just let the number 2022 slide past like it was no big deal. No pomp and circumstance. No partying (in part because I was nursing a head cold – but I somehow think this was by design…) No list of resolutions. No crazy big expectations and plans and dreams and wishes.
I just allowed 2023 to come into existence for me without pressure. It felt so much calmer than I normally feel. Today, I’m still nursing that head cold, and still not completely ready to get back into the hustle and bustle of the work I need to do. I’ve been trying to ease back into work and utilize my word of the year – GRACE. Though part of me is feeling a little guilty that I didn’t do all the things I normally do in a new year, I’m glad I’m not in freak-out mode like I have been during the first week of every January I’ve experienced for as long as I can remember.
I confess, it feels weird to just be taking the minutes as they come. And part of me keeps feeling like I should sit down and make some goals and lists and plans already. But instead, I’m consciously choosing to take my to-do list one item at a time, and not allow myself to freak out.
I feel LOTS of resistance to this way of thinking, but I’m hoping that it will lead to a calmer 2023. I’m hoping that somehow less stress and less “hurry up” mode will actually help me move the needle on the things I’ve been talking about for years. Clearly what I’ve done in years past hasn’t worked. So maybe it’s time to try another way. Maybe it’s time to let the chips fall where they may, and just be present as much as I can – taking things as they come rather than worrying about what could be, should be, or would be.
I’m not sure if this is coming off coherently or if these words sound like a rambling mess. But I guess I just wanted to share what I’m going through and feeling in the hopes that it helps someone connected to me feel a little less guilt over trying to do all the things…
If you’re still reading this post, thank you. Thanks for listening to me. I appreciate you and hope that 2023 brings us all the blessings we desire, with less stress, more calm, and a hell of a lot more GRACE ❤
