My Deepest Regret….

My biggest regret is how often I have neglected to live in the present moment. Rather than enjoy every single day to it’s fullest, I was always thinking about upcoming things. I can’t wait until I get to high school became I can’t wait until graduation became I can’t wait until college became I can’t wait to get married….you get the idea….

Too often I have looked forward to something rather than being happy with my current state of, well, being. I keep saying things like I can’t wait to go to Europe, I can’t wait to get a place of my own, I can’t wait to be blah blah blah…. If I died today would they put on my tombstone “she couldn’t wait for this”? That’s a scary thought. Am I just going to keep fast forwarding my life until that final day of my life comes? I don’t want to live like a person rushing to die!

I realize that I have taken many things for granted. So, I’m planning to do something I’ve never REALLY done before and that’s stop looking forward. Yes, I’ve said this in the past, but I’ve got to commit to living in the current moment and being 100% content with where I am right now.

I’ve got a lot of things I want to do, but planning to do them should not be all I think about. This way of thinking has kept me in a deep depression that I hide from the world. I constantly think about the things I haven’t done, haven’t achieved, haven’t received, and it keeps me feeling a sense of lack that makes me so sad.

I should instead be looking at what I HAVE done, what I HAVE achieved, what I HAVE received and be grateful for the abundance of things in my life I overlook and take for granted daily.

I saw this awesome photo on facebook and plan to really commit to this:

No more regrets! I forgive myself for always trying to fast forward my life and am excited to be here today and be here every day from now on. I will keep working towards my goals and dreams but I will not center my life on the future anymore. I will be grateful for all that I have right now and be grateful for all that I receive in each moment for the rest of my days. Tomorrow CAN wait, let’s enjoy today while today is still here!

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